Let Us Pray with Kesha
"Am I dead? Or is this one of those dreams? Those horrible dreams that seem like they last forever? If I am alive, why? If there is a God or whatever, something, somewhere, why have I been abandoned by everyone and everything I've ever known? I've ever loved? Stranded. What is the lesson? What is the point? God, give me a sign, or I have to give up. I can't do this anymore. Please just let me die. Being alive hurts too much."
Kesha's new, very personal album, Rainbow, drops today and one particular song plunges to the depths of our ears and hearts: Praying.
Rainbow comes after a dark period in Kesha's life where she was allegedly drugged, raped, verbally and physically as well as emotionally abused. "I have channeled my feelings of severe hopelessness and depression, I've overcome obstacles, and I have found strength in myself even when it felt out of reach. I've found what I had thought was an unobtainable place of peace" she says on LENNY. She continues to explain, "This song is about coming to feel empathy for someone else even if they hurt you or scare you. It's a song about learning to be proud of the person you are even during low moments when you feel alone. It's also about hoping everyone, even someone who hurt you, can heal."
The visually stunning music video directed by Jonas Akerlund opens by Kesha lying in a casket surrounded by her demons ready to devour her. The feeling of helplessness as she floats on a wooden raft, and her body position is reminiscent of classical art depicting Christ on the cross. As the song continues, she undergoes costume changes symbolizing her death and resurrection. From tattered clothing to an angelic piano player with a crown of thorns, she finds herself in a chapel praying, and eventually starting to climb Salvation Mountain (which if you haven't heard of, requires a pilgrimage), transforming in to a golden warrior angel in an amazing haute couture outfit that could have been off Alexander McQeen's runway.
The song reaches deep in your heart, feeling your pain and sorrow, and while she hits an amazingly high note towards the end, shattering all that is dark.
Why it Resonates
She begins with a monologue before the song starts stating, "If I am alive, why? If there is a God or whatever, something, somewhere, why have I been abandoned by everyone and everything I've ever known? I've ever loved?" It's the same pain and desperation echoed from Christ on the cross, when He was His most vulnerable, and cried out "Father, Father, why have you forsaken me?"
Just like Christ (and Kesha), all of us find ourselves in darkness and desperation. Whether it's because you're struggling to pair your faith and sexuality; leave an abusive relationship; drug and alcohol abuse; depression – whatever your dark area is, there is hope and a way out.
And its out of that darkness that we can rise to be a warrior angel, and maybe even hit that hight note as we climb Salvation Mountain.
"Oh, sometimes, I pray for you at night
Someday, maybe you'll see the light
Oh, some say, in life, you're gonna get what you give
But some things only God can forgive"
Written by Kesha Rose Sebert, Ben Abraham, Ryan Lewis • Copyright © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc